My husband filed for divorce the same day my mother went back into the ICU for internal bleeding. I felt my world fall apart, it wasn’t an unfamiliar feeling. I knew what to do. I prayed.
When my emotions are so strong, I struggle to make sense of my prayers but I pray. In those moments I pray God’s will be done and I so my best to surrender myself to the journey I know he placed before me.
My husband got the best lawyer, everyone told me that. “The judge favors men,” I heard that over and over.
“He can take everything from you” echoed in my ear. Fear and anxiety creeping in from every angle.
“You need to do this.”
“You need to do that.”
“You need to protect myself.”
“Think about the kids.”
So much noise. Then silence. Then God.
“Let him” ” It doesn’t matter what he is doing, it matters what you are doing.”
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