Yesterday he was my husband. The man I had committed my life to. The man I gave my heart to. The one I trusted with my secrets, who I worked to give my all to everyday.
I gave my body to him once on our wedding night in a way I had never given another man. I gave my body to him again a second time as I carried our daughter within me for 9 months. Just 4 months ago, in the final act of sacrificing myself, I gave birth to our daughter.
For just over 4 months we’ve been a happy little family. Some days, I feel as though there is a dark cloud. For 8 years this dark cloud has come to visit. Every now and then I’d feel the need to investigate, and a couple times I felt as though his family was keeping a secret from me. Each time I started snooping or letting those invasive thoughts get the best of me I reminded myself of the damage they could do to a relationship. I’d remind myself that I’m damaged and I’d put myself in check.
After 8 years of brushing invasive thoughts away I found out it was intuition yesterday. I found out that my husband had been lying to me for the entirety of our relationship and, even worse, his family knew too. In minutes my husband turned into a stranger, and I realized I did not even know the man in front of me.