October 30th, 2023

“What’s wrong?”             Is she serious?             I’m 4 months postpartum with my first daughter. I find out yesterday that my husband, the man I’ve been with for over 8…

“What’s wrong?”

            Is she serious?

            I’m 4 months postpartum with my first daughter. I find out yesterday that my husband, the man I’ve been with for over 8 years is basically a stranger to me.  She’s known the truth the entire time and I get a “What’s wrong?” message from her this morning.

            Like gas on the fire.

            I’ve been at a slow burn for the past 20 hours; but that just lit me up.

            She is not in the dark about what’s wrong, she’s had a better idea for the past 8 years of what is wrong than I did.

            In her defense, she doesn’t know how deep it cuts. She lost my trust yesterday too.  I not only lost a husband, I lost a sister. I’ve gained 2 strangers that for now I’m obligated to see. My husband bears most of the blame but she is not innocent. She watched us build a life on a foundation of lies and deceit.  If I had been in her shoes I wouldn’t have let it get that far.

            Even I had just popped into her shoes this morning I would have said “I’m sorry” or “I’m so sorry.”