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June 26th, 2026
This week has been heavy. Monday, I was excited for a nice family dinner with my dad and sisters. Shortly after I got to my sister’s house my son, Z, began vomiting. The first time he vomited it was all over the floor in my sister’s living room. I took him outside for some fresh…
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June 23rd, 2026
It’s been a year since I began to realize the depth of the abuse I suffered. I knew it was bad but when you are in it, you are too close to see the bigger picture. Even now I don’t think I fully grasp it, but giving myself time and grace. I thought I was…
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May 11, 2026
It’s been over 2 decades since my mom left me a voicemail apologizing and telling me how much she loved me. I was still in school, riding the school bus. I valued that voicemail so much I saved it for over 2 decades. My mom passed away about 9 months ago and today I accidentally…
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Narcissistic Abuse
2 counselors said narcissistic abuse. Does that mean I’m a narcissist? 3 counselors said I wasn’t a narcissist. I do have narcissistic traits. Most people do. I suffered from a lot of gaslighting. I guess I suffered from narcissistic abuse, according to the processionals. I don’t want to believe it. For so long I believed…
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July 23rd, 2025
Ten years to realize I couldn’t save him and I can’t save him. I fought a battle that was never mine to begin with. I let it consume me. I lost myself while trying to save him. I begged. I pleaded. I did things I never thought I would. I got angry, I punched, I…
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November 9th, 2023
It’s hard to breath, I can feel my heartbeat in my fingertips. My tears burning in my eyes. It’s the small things. My stomach is growling, my shirt soaked with milk. It’s the small things. I don’t want to eat but I have a baby to feed with my body. I asked him what he…
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November 2nd, 2023
Many people believe that cheating is worse. An affair would come close, but an affair would just be another woman. Another woman might steal his heart, but this owns his soul. Another woman could care for our daughter but this won’t. We are all at its mercy and it has no heart. An affair years…
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October 30th, 2023
“What’s wrong?” Is she serious? I’m 4 months postpartum with my first daughter. I find out yesterday that my husband, the man I’ve been with for over 8 years is basically a stranger to me. She’s known the truth the entire time and I get a “What’s wrong?” message from her this morning.…
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October 30th, 2023
Words. Words. Words. Twenty-six letters. Infinite possibilities…..