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August 16th 2025
K came here to get R (our daughter) and I really just wanted to go back into the relationship after he did a couple nice things here (played with dogs, and dumped a little dirty water out of the dog’s water dish.) I started to lie to myself, and tell myself that things would be…
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July 24th, 2026
I’m struggling. I feel so alone sometimes. I don’t like sitting with these feelings. I’m frustrated because I know my mind isn’t working like it should. The memory gaps. The cognitive dissonance. The excuses. The lies I keep telling myself. I still go back into that cycle thinking that maybe I could have done better.…
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August 13th, 2025
I started seeing a new counselor today. She said something about narcissistic abuse recovery and gaslighting abuse recovery. So here I am. K (my soon to be ex-husband) got very cranky about the whole breastmilk thing today. Like it is so inconvenient for him. He was cranky about the “short leash” he is on. Sometimes…
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August 9th, 2025
Everything is so peaceful when I don’t have to worry about my soon to be ex-husband. Then today after his thing he wanted us to watch our son (Z) try his first food together. When my soon to be ex-husband got here our daughter (R) had pooped. As he was wiping her it kind of…
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July 2nd, 2026
I’ve been divorced for almost 3 months now. My ex husband filed for divorce just over a year ago. When he filed for divorce I felt as though he was taking everything from me. Years of gaslighting abuse wrecked my mental and emotional health. Carrying two children took a toll on my body. Financially, I…
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August 8th 2025
My soon to be ex-husband asked me not to go to his church. He said I was the reason he didn’t get on the music team. His words sounded like they were aimed to sow doubt in my mind.
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August 7th, 2025
I keep thinking about all the ways “I” can make this situation work. I keep thinking “even if _____ happens I will be ok” BUT I keep thinking about how “I” will do it. I need to let God do it. I keep thinking about how I will make money to pay Keith after divorce…
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August 5th, 2025
“I remain confident of this, I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” -Psalm 27:13-14 My heart is breaking for my children right now. My soon to be ex-husband and I are about to have…
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August 4th 2025
“You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.” -Psalm 139:1 Today I was served the divorce papers. Don’t get me wrong my life is full of blessings, two beautiful children, 5 acres full of animals & plants I love, an amazing support system but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. All the broken…
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August 6th, 2025
I am going to meet with a lawyer. I am praying for wisdom. I would have preferred to handle this without lawyers but here we are. I really don’t know what to do when a lot of the stuff on the divorce paperwork in wrong. It’s been placed on my heart to write for a…